I'm seventeen, kids are not in my near future for sure, but part of me having this blog is so that I can look back on it when I do have kids to help them learn from my mistakes. We are so blessed to be in a time where we are able to record things and not have to worry about loosing it in a jumble of papers.
Here is what I want to say to my future daughter, assuming that I'm blessed with one someday..
1. In case I forget what it feels like to be distraught and seventeen I want you to know that there will come a time when you feel yourself deteriorate into nothing. That is totally okay, it happens. You must go through the struggle to find your strength. I won't let you go through it on your own but you must learn on your own. Trust me I will always be there for you if you need help.
2. If it's 3 AM and you find yourself in a state of complete despair please don't turn to alcohol to drown your demons, they can swim and they will. Climb into my bed and I will rub your back until they've fallen asleep. I refuse to be oblivious to your problems.
3.The hours between 12 AM and 6AM have an unavoidable way of being either the best hours or the worst. You will be on top of the world, or underneath it. Find a song that soothes your heart back to ease and please don't forget that you are human, it's okay to feel pain that means you're alive. Just breathe it's going to be okay.
4. Your mental health comes before school every single time. If it's midnight and you are too sad to move I will go out and buy you a carton of Ben and Jerry's. If I feel your hands shake and your heart beat out of your chest turn on the song that brings you to your happy place and slip back to sleep. if you fail a test don't worry, it will not cost you a trip to medical school.
5. One day you will meet a boy; he will make your heart flutter. You will feel butterflies inhabit your lungs and stomach, flowers will sprout out of the darkest parts of your mind. Seeing him will feel like fireworks at Disney World. One day these feelings might leave you and you will understand why they name tropical storms after people. You will want to die, please remember that everything is temporary. Then refer to number 4 on this list.
6. When you're walking along the street or driving to school and you see a homeless man with holes in his pant legs, a full beard covered in dirt please buy him a meal. Go out of your way to do it, it's alright to be late to school for this reason. It's okay if you're late for curfew, this will solidify that I have raised you right. Don't do it because you think it would make me happy, do it because it will make you happy.
7. Know that when I say "I love You" that I mean it differently than when a boy would say it to you. Know that I Love you Means that I would lay down everything to keep you safe and to make you happy. Anybody can say the words but few can mean it.
8. Never hate yourself, you were beautifully and wonderfully made. You were made in Gods image and you are the best thing that has or will every happen to me. Know that you can always come to me when your skin isn't clear and your body isn't perfect to society's standards. Know that you are beautiful to me. Thinking that you are beautiful is the only thing that matters.
9. Know that you can do anything you set your mind to. You can rule the world, you can be a mom, you can finish school. You can do everything. I will never push you to do something you hate, anything you want is yours to have if you work hard enough for it.
10. Lastly, always know that you are beautiful and loved. The world will tell you other things about how to fix yourself to be "perfect." Know that you are already perfect, that you are loved by many people. know that you can always talk to me and I will bring you to the the happy places in life.
Absolutely awesome!
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